Jesus said in Matthew 19:26 that with God, all things are
possible.
Ever had one of those days, weeks, months, years, or maybe
just a brief experience, when you just knew that Jesus was standing there in
the realm of the unknown, holding out his hand, and inviting you to step out of
the boat—your comfort zone—and walk with him on water...to do what to the human
mind seems impossible, but what to God is possible, and part of his plan for
you to live a life of faith, totally reliant on him?
For some time now the idea to write full-time has brewed...as
my pension plan—what I’d do when compelled by law to give up my day job. In
essence, that dream still lay a decade away.
As my writing opportunities have increased, I’ve experienced
more pressure on my time. So I’ve had to prioritize—give up blogs, and carefully
choose what involvement I retained. I came to realize more and more that I
couldn’t do it all. Not anymore. Not with working a 9-5 job which in itself has
developed new challenges and stresses. And it has frustrated me. So much to do,
so little time—a proposal that needs to be submitted to an agent (actually 2
and a publisher) I’d pitched to at ACFW Dallas last year; a publisher
interested in me writing a certain type of fiction for them; two stories
due by 1 May. God is no stranger to my pressures.
He’s no stranger to my desires, either—my passion to write for Him.
A month ago my youngest son who’s visiting from Budapest sat
me down for a serious talk. What had I done wrong was my initial reaction.
Nothing it turned out, except perhaps not listening to God’s voice. I hadn’t
told anyone yet of my deep down desire, and need, to write full time. I’ve all
these opportunities, all these stories, and not enough time to meet the demands
or the dreams. It was on Kyle’s heart to encourage me to think about writing
full time. Bear in mind, Kyle’s a missionary, and I’m one of his biggest
financial supporters. He encouraged me not to let that fact stand in my way. I said
I’d think about it, and so my ten-year plan became a one to two-year plan. As soon as Kyle has sufficient funding
through the project he’s working on, Lord...then I’ll consider writing full
time.
Every morning, a verse and encouragement is emailed to me,
but I don’t always get to read them. The following day, John 4:35 landed in my inbox.
“Do not say, ‘Four months more and then the harvest.’ I tell you, open your
eyes and look at the fields! They are ripe for harvest.”
God had caught my attention. Don’t wait. Do it now. I asked him to confirm that this was what I
needed to do. Shortly after that prayer, one of our suppliers came to my desk
and we started chatting. Out of the blue she asks me if I’d ever write full
time.
That very same morning, I received an email from a
devotional I’d signed up for called Loop. I had never opened an email from
them, yet. Once again, God spoke right into my heart about stepping out and
trusting him. Here are a few things He said, but you can read the full article
here: https://www.facebook.com/LoopDevotional/posts/1092156167463826
Hold Out Your Hand
It might be time to let go. It might be time to empty
your hands. It might be time to stop grasping.
Open up your hands. There are things I want to place
in them. For I do want you to hold on to some things.
I want you to hold on to Me. I want you to treasure moments, and
I want you to be present with Me. Look ahead, to the future, and ask for wisdom
so I may teach you the way to go, whether to spend time here or there.
I want you to live in freedom, breathe deeply, rest in what I
give.
I want you to hold on to my hand, in everything you do.
I want you to hold in your heart the image of you I put before
you, the daughter clinging to her Father’s hand.
“And now, O Lord, for
what do I wait? My hope is in you.” (Psalm 39:7).
Later that day I heard about a colleague who was giving up
his supervisory position to follow his passion to teach. I share with him my
dream and he emails me back: God never gives you a dream that matches your
budget.
All this in one day...my mind’s exploding with the fact that
God is speaking to me. And it’s scary. I’d have to give up so much security: a well-paid
job, pension plan, company car, friends and colleagues. And the boat, the
comfort zone, seems appealing.
Friday past, something happened at work that made me realize
God was no longer prodding to capture my attention—He was giving me a good boot
out of the nest, urging me to spread my wings and fly, to trust that he would
not let me fall but would take me to higher places.
As I got into my car to drive home, Voice of Truth by Casting Crowns began to
play on the CD player. It was such a clear affirmation that I needed to do this—for
His glory. I encourage you to read the lyrics.
So on Saturday, I chatted to my family about making the
decision to give up my day job where I’ve worked for the past nine years. I spent
the day rearranging my writing office and got a vision and zeal for doing this
crazy thing called walking on water.
My Bible reading Sunday morning was from Psalms 31 – 32, and
God once again reaffirmed his calling with scriptures like “You are my God. My
times are in your hands.”; “How abundant are the good things that you have
stored up for those who fear you, that you bestow in the sight of all, on those who take refuge in you.”; “I will
instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; I will counsel you with my
loving eye on you.”
Many years ago we did the Experiencing God study by Henry
Blackaby. He teaches about the “Seven Realities of Experiencing God”:
1. God is always at work around you.
2. God pursues a continuing love relationship with you that
is real and personal.
3. God invites you to become involved with Him in His work.
4. God speaks by the Holy Spirit through the Bible, prayer,
circumstances, and the church to reveal Himself, His purposes, and His ways.
5. God's invitation for you to work with Him always leads
you to a crisis of belief that requires faith in action.
6. You must make major adjustments in your life to join God
in what He is doing.
7. You come to know God by experience as you obey Him and He
accomplishes His work through you.
My word for this year was INTIMACY—to get to know God in a
more personal and close way. God seeks that, too, with me. Am I scared to climb
out of my comfort zone, to grab hold of the hand of Jesus, and walk on water?
Oh yes! I’ve experienced point #5 above several times since Friday. But the
alternative of remaining in the status quo scares me even more.
MARION UECKERMANN's passion for writing was sparked when she moved to Ireland with her family. Her love of travel has influenced her contemporary inspirational romances set in novel places. She now lives in South Africa in an empty nest with her husband and their crazy black Scottie, Wally.
