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A couple of recent online discussions
(including Patricia’s excellent post last week) made me reflect on
my writing journey.
At the same time, I had been reading
Exodus 33 where Moses on being commanded to leave Sinai demanded of God that he
wouldn’t go anywhere without His presence. Let’s have a look at the passage:
“Then
Moses said to the Lord, “See, You say to me, ‘Bring up this people.’ But
You have not let me know whom You will send with me. Yet You have said, ‘I know
you by name, and you have also found grace in My sight.’ Now therefore, I pray,
if I have found grace in Your sight, show me now Your way, that I may know You
and that I may find grace in Your sight. And consider that this nation is Your people.”
And
He said, “My Presence will go with
you, and I will give you rest.”
Then
he said to Him, “If Your Presence does not go with us, do not bring us up from here. For how then will it be
known that Your people and I have found grace in Your sight, except You go with
us? So we shall be separate, Your people and I, from all the people who are upon the face of the earth.”
(Exodus 33: 12-15 NKJV)
Who
do we rely upon?
Many
commentators believe the favour of God on Moses increased the very moment he
said yes and only if God would go with Him. God wants us to be people who do
not depend on our own ability, but upon Him.
So
many of us struggle continuously with the “am I good enough” syndrome.
Irrespective of how many books we may have written and/or published when we
turn up to the blank screen for the next one there’s always that doubt that
we’re done; there’s no more coming out of us. All our decent stories and/or
characters have all been revealed.
I’m
currently working on a non-fiction project and everyday I feel absolutely
unqualified to explore the topic I feel the Lord has put on my heart.
And
you know what, I am. Just like Moses who’s task was impossible in his own
strength.
And
the more I surrender to my own inadequacies the more I procrastinate and
nothing of any real value gets written.
What’s
the prize?
We
all want to get published, then have a bestseller, win awards, and sell sufficient
copies that we can live off a writing income. Yes?
Perhaps
we’ll never admit it to anyone (except the first point about being published)
but the other three would all be marvellous. Not just for the kudos and
trinkets that come with them but the sense of significance too. I really can
write.
But
the longer I walk this journey with the Lord the more I realise it’s all about
doing it with Him. When we spend time with Him both in the secret place
(Matthew 6:6) and at our keyboards all those “rewards” don’t seem all that
important.
We
get something so much better: Him!
“It
is the relationship and intimacy that grows out of remaining in Him that allows
you to know His heart …” (Heidi Baker)
In
calling us to write and/or filling us with story ideas, the Lord invites us to
abide in His presence so He can fill us with His desires for the world and us.
Oh, and He’ll help us write those stories. They may not win awards or even get
published but does it matter if we’ve got His heart?
“I am the vine, you are the branches. He who abides in Me, and I in him,
bears much fruit; for without Me you can do nothing.” (John 15:5 NKJV)
If
you’re struggling at whatever stage of the journey may I encourage you to be as
bold as Moses and ask that you’ll only continue if the Lord goes with you. And
when He says yes, enjoy spending time getting to know His heart for you and
your stories.
Ian Acheson is
an author and strategy consultant based in Sydney. Ian's first novel of
speculative fiction, Angelguard, is available in the US, UK, Canada and Australia. Angelguard was recognised with the
2014 Selah Award for Speculative Fiction.You can find more about Angelguard at Ian's website, on his author Facebook page and Twitter
