by Carolyn Miller
I like to think I’m braver than I am, that I’d be the person who saves a life by standing up to someone, or puts my life in danger in some dramatic rescue. Truth is, I’m not terribly brave. I prefer my cave to lots of people, I shriek when I see mice and snakes – and don’t get me started on rats! (Funny thing though, this little Aussie is perfectly okay with spiders)
The past few months have provided lots of opportunities for me to face my fears as I embark on published author life. From having to ask complete strangers for help in promoting my work, to asking authors I look up (but have never met) to read and then provide endorsement (hello, Angela! 😊), to being presented with opportunities to speak at conferences with far more knowledgeable people than I, sometimes it seems like I’m forced to face my fears every day.
Aren’t we all?
I think sometimes we believe that God is supposed to protect us from trouble, that the Christian life should be stress-free. I know people who have walked away from faith because they couldn’t understand why a good God would allow such hardship in their life. But God doesn’t promise stress-free. The Bible says many times that trouble comes but God is with us. That though we walk through the valley of the shadow of death we need not fear, because God is with us (Psalm 23.4). That God is our refuge and strength, our ever-present help in times of trouble (Psalm 46.1). These verses are easy to agree when life is cruisy, but how much harder when things seem overwhelming. (Can I hear an Amen?)
There have been times this past year when I’ve been literally trembling as I face my fears, even if it’s only about sending (or reading) a particular email. I remember saying to my mother-in-law how the challenges felt a bit like labouring in childbirth, where each band of pressure and contraction was leading to enlarged capacity, and the promise of new things. I might understand that intellectually, but I still had to walk through it. And in each of those moments, I found myself taking a deep breath and calling to mind God’s promises. My trust is in Him, that He will continue to order my steps and lead me where He wants.
Don’t we all?
Carolyn Miller lives in the beautiful Southern Highlands of New South Wales, Australia, with her husband and four children. A longtime lover of romance, especially that of the Regency era, Carolyn holds a BA in English Literature, and loves drawing readers into fictional worlds that show the truth of God’s grace in our lives. She is represented by Tamela Hancock Murray of the Steve Laube Agency. Her Regency novel 'The Elusive Miss Ellison' released in the US in February 2017, and is available at Amazon.comCBDBarnes & NobleBook Depositoryand her second novel ‘The Captivating Lady Charlotte’ releases June 27 and is available for preorder now.
Connect with her: https://www.carolynmillerauthor.com/