If I learned anything last year, I learned that I’m not as in control as I think I am. Not in my personal life, not in my ministry, and not in my writing career. And while I’ve never thought of myself as someone who needs to be in charge of everything, I have discovered that I have the need to fix things. And yes, to be in control.
Like many of us, with the New Year upon us, I’ve spent a lot of time reflecting about what is ahead, and praying for God to direct me and use me. Normally, I pray, wanting words to hear words like renewal and refreshing, but this year the word I kept hearing was surrender.
It’s not easy to surrender it all--my fears and worries, my marriage, my children, my ministry, my writing. . .everything.
I don’t know about you, but surrender doesn’t seem to be something that we as humans do automatically. Or maybe it’s just me. Every time I turn around, I catch myself trying to handle things on my own. Trying to fix things on my own. Over and over.
To help me understand what surrendering really means, I started reading through scripture that talked about trusting in Him only and where my focus needs to be.
Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths. Proverbs 3:5-6
But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you. Matt 6:33
My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness. Corinthians 12:9
I appeal to you therefore, brothers, by the mercies of God, to present your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and acceptable to God, which is your spiritual worship. Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect. Romans 12:1-2
I’m continuing to learn that He hears my prayers and my cries and wants me to trust everything to Him.
To surrender to His will, His direction, and His promises.
And I’m learning that is enough.