Friday, January 17, 2014

DEVOTION: My Refuge and My Rock ~ by Marcia Lee Laycock

“What you have done is good but your obsession with it is not.”

Bam. The man’s words hit me between the eyes. He had not pointed me out in the congregation, he had not mentioned me by name, but I knew the words, which he said God had given him, were meant for me.

I was in the middle of writing my first novel, a fantasy that totally enthralled me when I worked on it and during almost every other waking moment. Sometimes it even invaded my dreams. I knew I was obsessed with it and I knew that obsession was not a good thing. I was struggling with some issues in my life and trying to avoid dealing with them. The fiction writing became an escape, the pill I used to take the pain away, my refuge and my rock.

My fiction writing had taken the place of God in my life. It had become an idol.

When I returned home after that conference I knew I had to do something about it so I prayed. I prayed hard. God answered but I did not like what He told me to do - stop. So I didn’t do it. I tried to rationalize it – after all, I prayed before I worked, most of the time, and I had dedicated all my writing to God, hadn’t I? But God’s answer was still the same - stop. I struggled with it for some time, but finally, reluctantly, I obeyed. I stopped writing fiction. I continued to write the devotional column for a local newspaper and other non-fiction work, but I wrote no fiction.

He was merciful and took away the ideas, the scenes and characters that normally flooded my head, but it was hard. It felt like wandering in a desert and I had no idea how long it would last. That time in the desert was a time of growth and trust and learning to be obedient. Then, one day, almost two years later, after speaking with a woman from a crisis pregnancy centre, an idea came to mind and a character began to take shape in my head. I was excited but resisted the urge to write it down. Instead, I prayed. I prayed hard. And God released me to write. He gave me a specific time and place in which to do it and as I wrote he helped me to realize it is not writing fiction that will heal me or keep me sane. Only Jesus can do that deep work. When I told my husband that I was writing fiction again, he said, “Now it will come from a place of strength instead of weakness.” Yes, strength that came from listening, waiting, praying, strength that flowed from the mercy and grace of God.

That novel, One Smooth Stone, won me The Best New Canadian Christian Author Award when it was published.

I’ve never forgotten the lessons God taught me during that time. What about you? Is writing your refuge and your rock? Perhaps you need a time in the desert.

“You shall have no other gods before me.” Exodus 20:3

Marcia Lee Laycock lives and writes in Central Alberta Canada where she lives with her husband and two golden retrievers. Her work has appeared in print in both Canada and the U.S. and in many places on the world wide web. Visit her website to learn more about her writing and speaking ministry.

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  1. Marcia, thanks so much for your openness in this message. It spoke to my heart. Blessings!

  2. A blessing to me this post too Marcia as I have been struggling with something. Thanks.

  3. Thank you Marcia, an excellent reminder of how our own desires can cause us to give God second place. My conscience was pricked!