I sat at the table for five hours watching people walk by. Now and then someone would stop and pick up one of my books. I’d chat with them, telling them what the books were about. Sometimes I’d share how the Lord had used them to change someone’s life.
Usually they’d smile and move on. They’d move on to buy trinkets at other tables loaded with kitsch—painted plastic santas, angels made of dishtowels, and snowmen made of styrofoam.
As the day wore on I got a little discouraged. As discouragement often does, it moved into bitterness tinged with anger. Why were these people so eager to grab things that had so little value? Why weren’t they more interested in buying something that could nourish their souls? It made me want to scream, but I kept quiet and tried to keep smiling.
As I drove home later that day I ruminated. I love that word—it means to turn over and over, as in a cow chewing her cud. And that’s what it felt like as I drove along my stomach was churning, I was stewng over what had happened, and I wasn’t being very complimentary to those people who had not bought my books.
Then that still small voice whispered from somewhere beyond: “And what about you?”
Me, Lord? Um … What do you mean?
I didn’t really have to ask. I knew what He meant. I too make choices every day, choices that are just like those kitsch-hunters. I choose things that are of little value and momentary pleasure over the riches and everlasting joys of Christ. Every day.
I was humbled there in my car, and had to ask God to forgive me for my “holier than thou” thoughts. I had to thank Him for those who did buy my books and thank Him for what he was going to do in their lives through my mere words. And I had to ask Him to forgive me for all those times I’ve chosen the kitsch of the world over Him.
The verses in Deuteronomy filled my mind - “Now choose life, so that you and your children may live and you may love the Lord your God, listen to his voice and hold fast to him. For the Lord is your life…” (Deut.30:19-20).
Marcia’s inspirational writing has won awards in both Canada and the U.S. Her devotionals are distributed to thousands and her novel, One Smooth Stone, won the Best New Canadian Christian Author Award in 2006. Marcia is also a sought-after speaker for women’s events. Visit her at www.vinemarc.com